Why is it that often in the very things that we know God has called us to, we experience the most doubt?  What I mean is this.  I’m not certain that taking a trip to Colorado, or buying my new truck, or even going out with friends the other night was necessarily what God had for me, and yet I can plan and administrate those plans and circumstances without even a second thought.  The consequences for some are quite benign: I may have a spat with my friends, but we will likely make up.  For others, the investment in time and money, like the trip or the truck, can be significant.  Yet I seem to accept these as normal ‘risks’ of living.

But right now, I am in the midst of one of the clearest movements of God in my life.  My first book, The Unseen War, is about to be released … and I am scared out of my mind!  I have no doubt that God has been leading me in this endeavor, from waking me at 4:00 AM to give me the outline, to finding an awesome publisher and publicist for the final project, to the life experiences that gave substance to my writing.  And yet, I am doubting that I should have ever done this at all, doubting anyone will care, doubting God ever spoke, doubting my own heart.

What is it about the things of God, the places that we were so sure of, that we question?  I know I am not alone.  Even the mighty prophet Elijah, after he had called down fire from heaven and consumed the sacrifice, proving once and for all that the Lord God Jehovah was the true God; after he had seen God miraculously rescue him from a famine, we find him hiding under a tree!  ‘Elijah was afraid and ran for his life … “I have had enough Lord,” he said.  “Take my life.”’  (1 Kings 19: 3&4).

What I love about this story is what God does.  He sends Elijah on a hike, a forty day hike, to a mountain.  There he speaks to him, not in the storm or the earthquake, but in a whisper.  And he says, ‘Go back Elijah, get back in the fight, I’m not done with you yet.’  He doesn’t explain all that has happened or is happening, he simply tells the prophet to get back in the battle.

I hate this part of the adventure, this part where we have to trust, where we can’t make it happen, where we are not sure.  But it is a part of the adventure, perhaps the most crucial part, for it is the place where we get to walk in his power and his presence and his anointing. 

Let’s see what he does.

To the King,

David